Goodbye, Belgium.
Today was a sad day, full of goodbyes. As bad as they are, these are the days you love and remember. They make you realize how amazing your life is and how many people care about you. Patricia, thank you so much for having that party. It meant more to me than you know…I really needed to see the old nonagon group one last time.
I can’t believe I’m leaving…it isn’t supposed to be this way. I’ve been in Belgium for one sixth of my life. I know it sounds cliche but this is quite possibly the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. How have I dealt with it? Denial. I’ve kept it all inside and I shouldn’t have. After the party tonight I went home and cried. I haven’t cried that much in two years, but no one knows about these emotions because I bottled them up. Anyway, I’m not getting much sleep tonight so I figured I should say my final goodbyes.
Guys:
Davide – It’s been great dude. You took me in and remained friends through it all. Even when your Dad hated me, you stuck by. I’m sorry we didn’t get to hang out more this year. It doesn’t matter though because you’re going to Trinity damnit and we’re gonna hang out on the weekends. Anyway, you’ve always been there for me. Long live the mother fucking Raiders.
G to the eoff – Even when I was a nerd in 10th grade you made me feel cool. Thanks for always being there. Now our midnight talks are going to take like five hours because they’ll have to be online! Sorry about leaving you with no guy friends…I’m always just a phone call away though.
Krif – Four years, loads of crap. Pretty much everything I’ve done in Belgium I did with you first. You got me to start going dt and always gave me a place to crash. It’s gonna be weird not coming over to our house for a while. Anyway, take care dude…don’t fucking smoke your lungs away. [vV] for life.
Medcalf – Scouts fucking sucked, dude. Good luck in your “endeavors”…make sure to keep me updated on the prestigious list of girls. We should have a movie marathon when I get back…we can even do that thing I promised you (it’s not what you’re thinking you sickos!)
Alex – Damnit, why couldn’t we have become friends back in 9th grade when we met!!! It’s been short-lived but awesome. It’s always great to meet your twin. Keep up the comic and movie collections. We’ll have our LotR marathon at grad!
My girls: Ya’ll are my best friends. I love you so much!
Patricia – my first friend. I owe so much to you. You are a truly amazing person and I love you to death. I can’t believe how much you’ve helped me change. You helped me open up to people and introduced me to pretty much every one of my best friends. When I’m old and senile I’ll still remember everything you’ve done for me.
Alexia – my second friend. In three and a half years we have really gone through a lot together. Star Wars, Chasing Amy…moments like those sum up our friendship. Though there may be lapses in time between our encounters in the future, they will always be the most memorable moments.
Rach – I have never felt unwelcome when you’re around. You make me so happy everyday, even though it is hard to tell. I’m gonna miss you so much…you have to come to Texas this summer!
Lauren – I hate you. Why did we become friends? Just kidding….or am I? You are my best friend and I love you so much! I can’t believe I’m leaving you, especially since you’re so close now. The last two years with you have been the happiest of my life and I will never forget them. I don’t really know what to say to you because you know everything already. I’m going to miss you most of all.
Well, its 4:17 and I should probably go to bed. I’m going to miss it here so much. Living here with ya’ll has changed me so much. I love who I am now. Thank you all so much. I hope the rest of the year is amazing…I’ll be thinking about ya’ll every day. Make sure to keep in touch.
Ryan.
