The next three weeks are going to be the hardest stretch of law school thus far, and I’m having trouble finding any motivation at all. I think that applies generally to this semester. I don’t know if its a universal feeling (I suspect it is), but the allure of law school has worn off. By this point there are a lot of things I love about school (primarily the schooling), but a lot of things that I really hate. I hate grades, and how they turn an otherwise enjoyable experience into a clusterfuck of annoying overachievers. I understand their purpose, but they cause people to do foolish things.
I suspect that my lack of a summer job has played a large role in my dissatisfaction. The first hurdle in law school was surviving the first semester. That was easy. The second hurdle was finding summer employment. Regardless of what’s to blame – the economy, my interviewing, my resume, etc. – I’ve pretty much run into this hurdle. I’ll eventually find something, but it’s going to be a job I have no interest in, and that has infected my overall mood.
I’ve been thinking a lot about life after 1L. I wonder if it will be significantly different. I have a feeling that hopes of enjoying California and exploring LA will meet the realities of everyone being spread out, and I’ll spend most of my free time sitting in front of a television.
Sorry for the somber entry, but I always said I wanted this blog to capture my law school experience honestly. I’ve realized that once the workload slows down, I don’t really have many friends in this city. I find myself wanting to get out, but having extremely limited options. I’ve started thinking about my post-law school LA life as a disjointed entity. Somehow, I’ve convinced myself that it will be different – I’ll finally form a group of friends that will allow me to feel like this city is my own. I’m not really sure what it takes to find that group, unless you’re in high school or college. I guess people get married, and it goes from there. We can rule that one out. Maybe I need a girlfriend. Maybe I need a dog. Maybe I just need to end this entry and go to sleep. Always go with your first choice the latter option.
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